Hello. My name is Leila, I’m 16 years old and I live in Toronto, Ontario.
For about 6 years now I have been struggling with major anxiety and depression. Due to this, I have missed out on so many incredible opportunities throughout the years. I have lost a lot of friends because of my withdrawal from society.
I’ve experienced so many dark and hopeless times where I just felt like a failure. Every one of my days I felt miserable and I was alone. I felt like nobody could ever understand me.
Luckily, I pushed through. I distracted myself with the few things that made me happy. One of the things being hockey. I don’t play but I enjoy watching it. The feeling I get when I’m either watching it on TV or live is an absolute comfort.
Due to my anxiety, I used to have panic attacks in crowds because I was overwhelmed by everything. I avoided any kind of concert, games, and events solely because of that reason. Therefore, It has kept me back from doing the things I loved.
It has been a huge obstacle in my life. However, it has made me a better person. I feel more empathy for those who struggle with any mental or physical illness. I am also a stronger person.
I still struggle with it to this day, but I’m in a better place now. Already, I am starting to build my future and face my fears. I am determined to achieve my goals and to finally overcome my mental illness.
I’ve always seen P.K. Subban as an inspiration of mine since I’ve been a fan of the Habs. What I love about him are the endless beautiful qualities he has. I admire how much he cares for people around him and I want to thank him for always being such a compassionate, motivational and humble role model to me.